Changes

well, it's been awhile, but I know you all understand! Life is good, but different as Jo would say. The other day Jo says, "my school is different. my home is different. my church is different. Everything is different, mom. I want to go back to Paramount." She says all of this as she is staring out the window with the saddest face I have ever seen. Talk about breaking your heart. How do you fix that when you feel the same way?? I have always known that I am not good at changes, but I thought this time around I would cruise right through it since I have Jesus in my life now. It has been easier but I have realized that I have to lean into Him instead of trying to fix it all myself. I can't heal my little girl's broken heart, I can't update a whole house in a matter of weeks (or even months) ...I can't do it mysef. I always knew I was a perfectionist, but to what degree was unclear until this move. Moving from a house that you had everything the way you wanted it (almost), and moving into a house that needs new flooring, paint, applicances, window treatments, etc. is HARD!!! Don't get me wrong....we are happy we bought this house. We knew all of this coming into it, and we both instantly saw a great vision for this house. It will be beautiful when we are done with it. But the problem is, I want it done NOW! I didn't realize how much my emotions are linked to my surroundings. I can't be content until my surroundings are perfect, which the Lord is helping me through. This is my biggest struggle right now....learning to be content with where I am right now. The Lord is my Joy. Not my home.
And I believe this, but how do I "get" it in my spirit??
Overall, we are doing good. We went to a Texas Tech football game last weekend. Jo LOVED IT! She kept yelling "go red raiders!" We are still looking for a church home. We are going to visit a couple of more before we commit. Makayla is struggling alot right now. She doesn't want to go to school, church, or gymnastics anymore. "mama, will you go with me?" She is needing alot of security right now. I think the new has wore off, and now she realizes that she isn't going back to Amarillo.. so please pray for her. Well, that's all for now.

My sweet baby girl!